Tuesday, July 10, 2012

This Week's Vlog: Rollercoasters and Suitcases

Today I ramble a bit about the emotional rollercoaster before surgery and I talk about what I'm taking with me to the hospital.

My dog decides to get in on the conversation as well.

Monday, July 9, 2012

And Now . . . One For the Support Team

My last post was geared toward those that were still negative about my decision to have the Gastric Sleeve.  Today, I have decided to write one for those of you that have stood beside me 100%. For my followers and friends that understand my struggles and know how important this surgery is to my life:

To My Husband: I love you with every ounce of my being. Thank you so much for being there every step. You encourage me daily and love me unconditionally. You strive to not just aid me in my own journey, but in making positive, healthy changes in our entire family. Without you, this journey is fruitless, and may not have even happened. Thank you, LOML. ♥

To My Children: My little cheerleaders: each of you push me a little farther. When I'm struggling, you tell me "you can do it Mommy!" I am doing this for each of you - so I can see you graduate, watch you get married, and hold my grandchildren (in 50 years, of course). I love you each more than you can imagine.

To My Parents: You have stood by me and lifted me up. Mom, you have inspired me more than you can possibly know. Daddy, your love and support have been the world and more to me.

To My Brothers: I know how much you understand what I'm going through. Thank you so much for cheering me on.

To My Sisters: My very best friends: You guys push me to be the very best person I can be, regardless of my weight.

To My Friends: You each have supported me in so many ways - dieting with me, calling me to check on me, distracting me, and even yelling at me sometimes. And that's just the beginning. Many of you have known me since elementary school and know just how far back my struggles have gone, yet you never judged me based on my weight. True friendship lasts through the ages, and I thank you for yours.

In less than a day I will be making the biggest change of my entire life. Every emotion known to man has gone through my mind - from joy and excitement to fright and sadness. I am ready for this - emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically. And those of you that have supported me on this venture are part of the reason why. I can't wait to see the real me. And I can't wait for all of you to see her too.

Love and Hugs,

Friday, July 6, 2012

Why Weight Loss Surgery?

First of all, let me say that the unbelievable outpouring of support that I have received over my decision to have surgery has been TREMENDOUS. I am very excited about this stage in my life, I am excited about the positive changes about to happen, and I am excited about the new me that will be emerging like a butterfly from this fat, unhealthy pupa.

That being said, there are still those that don't quite understand why I've chosen this route. Some are afraid of my going into surgery. Some think that I could do it on my own if I wanted to. And some think that surgery is, quite frankly, a cop-out.

Today, I'm going to shed some light on the truth about WLS, in particular the sleeve (Vertical Sleeve), I'm going to address some of those worries, concerns, and misinformed statements, and I'm going to give a little more insight about how I got to this point.

I have been overweight since childhood. From the time I was about eight years old, to be precise. The weight started coming on sometime after I had my tonsils out as a kid, and it never really stopped. I went on my first diet (unbeknownst to my mother) when I was around 10. This led to a 26 year long string of failed attempts. I have been on every diet known to man, and some not-so-known. I have done Atkins, South Beach (4 times), Lean Bodies (three times), juice fasting (twice), Weight Watchers (twice), Slim Fast (A lot), the blood type diet, the eden diet, vegetarianism, and many, many more. I would lose a grand total of up to 20 lbs, and stop. I would continue, sometimes for months. But would always be stuck at that first 20 lbs. The last attempt I made before deciding on surgery was Weight Watchers. I lost 20 lbs and got down to around 276. And that's where I stayed for three months. I exercised daily, I counted my points religiously, I did everything I was supposed to do. I changed things up - lowering my points slightly, raising them slightly, working out more, changing my routine, EVERYTHING you can think of. And the weight did. not. move. I finally gave up. And gained 20 lbs back. The best I was ever doing was maintaining an unhealthy weight.

I love exercise. I love eating healthy. I try to do both on a regular basis. And yet, I am still maintaining or gaining, NOT losing.

One thing I have learned is that even eating healthy, you can still overeat. Eating a delicious meal of grilled chicken, vegetables, and quinoa doesn't help if you eat the whole panful. That's where the surgery comes in.

The surgery I have opted to have is called the Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy (aka, Vertical Sleeve, Gastric Sleeve, VSG . . .). The purpose of this particular surgery is to remove 75-85% of your stomach, leaving a "pouch" that is about the size and shape of a banana. This process will also remove glands (Ghrelin gland) or portions of glands in the stomach that cause hunger. The purpose is to re-train your body to think of food in a different way. No longer will I be able to live to eat, I will have to eat to live.

The procedure will be laparoscopically, which means there will be a few small incisions on my belly and the doctor will use special instruments, including a camera to see what he's doing, to complete the procedure. The stomach will be stapled off then the unused portion will be removed. The doctor will then stitch along the staple line and remove the removed portion of my stomach through one of the incisions. Then I will be stitched up and sent to recovery. From there I will go to a hospital room to stay at least 24 hours.

There are risks with this surgery, it is, after all, a huge procedure. But the risks are far smaller than the gastric by-pass, the duo-donal switch, and even the lap-band. The biggest risk with the sleeve is possible leakage around the staple line, but even this is less than a 1% risk. In other words, a gastric sleeve procedure is even safer than a c-section.  Yes, there is the risk of not waking from anesthesia. But then, I'm 288 lbs (as of yesterday). There's a chance I won't wake up tomorrow morning. There's a greater chance that 10 years from now, without surgery, that I won't wake up to watch my daughter graduate from high school.

To those that believe that weight loss surgery is an easy way out, I want you to consider my situation for a moment. Suppose you have been obese all your life. Suppose that every diet you have ever tried has failed after a set amount of time. Suppose you do everything right, and still don't lose weight. At which point do you say, "maybe it's time for a drastic change?"

With this surgery, I will still have to diet and exercise. I will still have to pay attention to what I eat and my portion sizes - even more so now than ever before. I will be on a strict eating regimen to ensure that I am getting enough nutrients and protein to heal my body and keep it healthy. I will have to take multiple vitamins each day and continually have a water bottle on hand at all times. The point of this surgery is not to be an easy way out. It is, rather, a tool for me to use to finally, after 26 years of struggling, have success. It is a way for me to have a "re-set button", if you will. I will have to re-train my body to eat again. I will finally have the attitude about food that I have been praying about for so long.

Thank you for reading this, and thank you for joining me on my journey. If you have any questions or comments, please feel free to leave them in the comments section below or you can email me at SuperMom2JakeAndEmmy@Gmail.com

God Bless,

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

New Vlog, Plus Recipes!

This week I'm talking about the joys of the liquid diet. Okay, well, maybe JOYS is a bit strong of a word. It's not bad. It's not GREAT but it's not bad either! Enjoy!

And HERE are the recipes! (Plus a few bonus)

All shakes have the following instructions:

In shaker or blender combine all ingredients except ice (if using). Blend or shake until well mixed. If using ice, add ice and blend until the ice is crushed. Enjoy immediately!

Morning Coffee

1 packet or serving scoop(s) vanilla protein powder
Water according to package/surgeion instructions
1 packet Taster's Choice or Folger's single serve instant coffee
@ 1 T sugar free chocolate syrup
dash cinnamon
1/2 C ice (optional)


1 Packet or serving scoop vanilla protein powder
water according to package/surgeon instructions
1 tsp sugar free caramel coffee syrup
dash cinnamon
dash nutmeg
dash ground cloves
dash ground ginger
1/2 C ice

Banana-Berry (or Banana Split)

1 Packet or serving scoop vanilla protein powder
water according to package/surgeon instructions
@ 1 T sugar free strawberry syrup
1 tsp. banana extract
1/2 c ice

Coconut Cream Pie

1 Packet or serving scoop vanilla protein powder
water according to package/surgeon instructions
1 T caramel flavored coffee syrup
1 tsp coconut extract
dash cinnamon
1/2 c ice

Mounds Shake

1 Packet or Serving scoop vanilla protein powder
water according to package/surgeon instructions
1 T sugar free chocolate syrup
1 tsp coconut extract
1/2 c ice

Shamrock Shake

1 packet or serving scoop vanilla protein powder
water according to package/surgeon instructions
1 tsp mint flavoring
1 T caramel coffee syrup
1/2 C ice

After adding seasonings, heat each recipe in microwave or on stovetop until just steaming.

Taco Soup Broth

1 Can chicken or beef broth (or 1 1/2 cups)
2 tsp Mrs. Dash Fiesta Lime seasoning

WonTon Soup Broth

1 Can (about 1 1/2 C) Chicken broth
1 tsp soy sauce
pinch of ground ginger
pinch of garlic powder
pinch of onion powder

French Broth

1 can beef or chicken broth
1 tsp red wine vinegar
2 tsp Mrs. Dash garlic and herb seasoning OR 2 tsp herbes de provance